Over the last 6 months, there's been some major personal changes going on. I'm calling it a special transition phase of my life. Although life in itself comes with curveballs and obstacles, the changes i'm talking about are much more personal than outside factors... and girl, they have been pretty difficult to adjust with.
It's like I turned 23 years old and my body and mind went haywire. Since then, i've dealt with tons of physical changes that of course resulted in mental/emotional changes.
Let me explain.
In the last 6 months, hormones and stress have had its way with me. I've experienced really bad nonstop hormonal breakouts - on my face and chest. Of course, i've invested in every beauty product I could to alleviate, suppress, or get rid of it all. The breakouts die down at times but it's still very much not done with me.
As i've shared before there has been hair changes as well. Hair loss has been a big issue and I blame heat damage and stress. Hence, my big chop and overall switch up in the products I use.
Not only have I noticed sudden spurts of changes with my facial skin and hair but my body has formed as well. My physical features have changed and I've accepted that they will most likely never be the same. I look at older pictures of myself from just 2 years ago and a lot of things don't look the same to me. My body has transformed inside and out, as I would like to think, into the next stage of my life.
After sharing my concerns with older and wiser women, they shared a sad truth. I am a woman. My body is ever-changing. My features are forming. My hormones are out-of-wack and apparently, this is something I have to get used to. They begin at different stages for different woman and mine happens to be right now.
Well, i'm having a hard time adjusting. It's been quite difficult to just sit back and allow mother nature just take its course without feeling frustrated and intervening with tons of products. It's caused me to be self-conscious at times, irritable and overall not confident in myself especially when facing big crowds. The worst is over and i've done all I can to get my body and mind back to a state of balance. The moment I began to accept the changes, the less stressed i've been. Less irritable. Less worrying. A little more confident.
I share this because I know i'm not alone. I know that as women, we try to do all we can to look and be perfect and 9 times out of 10, it's completely out of our control. Our skin and body will do things we don't expect. But I remind myself that my body has to change and evolve with my mind and vice versa. I'm transforming slowly into who I am meant to be. When I remind myself of this - a sense of calmness takes over. I am blooming everyday.
..to be continued